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Finding Purpose


I can't say I know what it is. Purpose. By definition, it means n. The reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists.

Etymology: Middle English: from Old French porpos, from the verb porposer, variant of proposer. 
c. 1300, "intention, aim, goal," from Anglo-French purpos, Old French porpos "aim, intention" (12c.), from porposer "to put forth," from por- "forth" (from Latin pro- "forth;" see pur-) + Old French poser "to put, place" (see pose (v.1)). On purpose "by design" is attested from 1580s; earlier of purpose (early 15c.).

So what is my intention, aim, goal? Or what is God's, the Universe's, the Creator's intention, aim, or goal for me? Why was I put forth? Why was I placed here in this time, at this moment? Divine by design, but why? What do I have to do here?

Do I just live? And if I do, what do I want to do? What if what I want to do is not what I was here to do? I do believe there's more to this than meets the eye, more to existence, more to waking up, going to work, eating, sleeping, more than this physical experience. But what does it mean to bring the spiritual experience here?

Is it simply understanding where we are is where we are meant to be no matter where we go and what we do?

My understanding of the physical and spiritual realms has lead me to a midlife crisis at an early age. Quarterlife crisis if you will. It's lead me to question every decision I've made and every step I've taken up until now which leads me to questions every choice I WILL make. If there's one thing I know to be true is that I know before I know. So do you! We know before we know but we don't like to accept things without proof. We don't like to go on no-thing... We don't like to be told this is what the plan is if there are no proven outcomes or sound reasoning for said plan. Or maybe that's just me.

Recently, in my adult life, I have been shown that I know before I know. When I was a child, I knew before I knew but one has less autonomy then so one cant always go with their gut. Some folks may be able to as they are growing up but I know that some folks don't.

I have epiphanies a lot. But they don't make sense in today's context. Is my purpose to bring these epiphanies to life? Is my purpose to put these epiphanies before you? Is it to simply let the world know there are other ways?

It's hard to let something go when other people are holding on. It's hard to let something go when you have no proof of what will happen when you do. Is my purpose to learn this lesson? Is my purpose to let go and trust?

According to Astrology for the Soul, it seems to be that way. If you're not ready to be read for filth I suggest staying away from that book. Lol. If you're not ready for an existential crisis, I suggest you stay away from that book. If you're ready to see a different point of view of your life, go ahead and take a look, and be curious. Don't take it to heart unless it resonates.

This is where my crisis, quarter-life crisis, was born. But I felt it before I met it. Add in a dash of Life Path numbers and you got a full-blown explosion of the mind. How do we reconcile what numbers (the foundation of the universe tells us) versus the stars on the (day/night) we were born? Do we believe in vibrations, in frequency, more than an etheric signature? Can they coexist and lead us in the ways we need to be lead? What is christ consciousness, what is a starseed, what is the fifth, sixth, seventh, twelfth dimension? What are all these things and how do you hold space for it all? Who am I in this multiverse?

Yeah, existential, quarter-life crisis here.

What is my purpose? Apart of me knows. And I'm not scared, I just don't understand it. The vibrations in my name say one thing and the blueprint of my birth says another... And perhaps my understanding of it all, the synthesis is still processing.

These are just my musings. I think quite a lot, and find myself coming up with interesting ideas and concepts and never share them. But I was told to Share My Gifts. And one of them is the Gift of Gab. Lol.

What is my purpose? Maybe we're all discovering that as we go and we don't really know until we arrive...


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